3.5 hours at the V.A. today with my Doc and many others. My low weight is fine, but I need more carbs. Need bloodwork for the HIV, but I look very well. Yes I need some meds to help sleep and work on my anxiety over New Orleans’ fate. These things can be fixed.
My bleeding prob will be fixed next month. The Ovarian/Uterine worries will be resolved by tests. The sinus/tinnitus probs are to be resolved. Everything is within allowable parameters.
It’s about stress and not having seen a doc for years. Doc said I was worried about too many things, especially about my health condition, our house and the City. There’s a ton of bloodwork ahead, but this guy is great with HIV stuffs. He knows my history, and the fact that I violate all of the thoughts on the course of this disease. The rationale is that I have worn myself out whilst trying to fight many issues. (Of course y’all knew that I would go to that point.)
I will not stop on these issues. Now I can calm down on what all of this work is doing to my body. And this verifies that the Third Battle for New Orleans keeps me alive. One must have a reason to exist, and I freakin’ have one- the Soul of New Orleans. Even if I must leave this plane, New Orleans and Her folks must be restored.
Considering the B/S of Mayor Nagin and his business friends, I just might live forever. Works for me Darlin’s.
After my inquisition I headed to Krystal for some Murder Burgers and continued to the Starlight. I chomped away whist talking to friends about what is going down in the community. Had a few cocktails too. Realized that the angst/anxieity/depression of being a rebuilder in the City can make for some strange feelings. I’m tired, but Doc Oct saved my life today. What I’m feeling is the fight, not my mortality.
I ain’t going anywhere but New Orleans.
Geek Dinner at our house next month, and I will be able to celebrate all that we NOLA Bloggers have worked for. There is no reason to back down now. The Goddess protects those who PROTECT. And… It’s time for planning Rising Tide IV. This year nothing will stop me from from being a more active member than last year.
I am NOT going away anytime soon. The Bitch from Gentilly shall abide, and she will fight like all Hell.