Gentilly Girl- a part of the 99%

November 16, 2009

And I Am To Vanish Into the Mists?

Filed under: LGBT,New Orleans,Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 3:16 am

back in time there was a child, a freak of nature, though that child never knew the truth. A child who walked to school, studied hard and one that fulfilled the wishes of it’s parents; to be the best that you can be and never forget where you came from. The child who held their Mom as she died very early and a Dad that lost it because his world had ended. The child who became a “Mom”. A child who did everything to please…who had a goal in mind; “Evey chance for everyone”. The child thought, “I leave no one behind”.

That child wound up being the Class Valedictorian as it worked full-time to keep it’s world and the family safe, rated by the Military and many colleges as a prime choice- 200+ IQ and being part of the one hundreth of one percentile of the entire population. “There is nothing you can’t do.” they said. “The World is your oyster”. And that child turned down their Dad’s second mortgage to finance that child’s college fees because the child was worried about their siblings’ chances to be able to further themselves. That child did not want preferential treatment. The child knew what it was directed to do, what the Inner Voice called for.

That child went into Nuclear Engineering in the Navy, loving the calculations and the whole process, but after 9 years left for something different. The child decided to deal with people instead of equations, since people were what the child wanted to be involved with. It’s what the child needed in it’s soul. Connections with others was what that child craved, needed, and desired.

Yes, the child is me.

I’m an Intersexed woman with a healthy dose of Aspergers Syndrome to boot. And all I have ever wanted was to tend my own garden and see folks living happy lives. Sadly, that was never to be my fate. I have seen too much.I must speak from my heart and speak for those like me.
And I must live by the words of the Lady.

And no, She will not lend her mind to their crap; My belief and trust is in people. “Such a waste”, said my in-laws… “You could make so much money”. My answer was about how does money asauge the pain others are going through, the drive for true equality, the knowledge that you have a part in all of this?

My answer was that it didn’t.I don’t agree with the “$$$=Success” model. My sisters and brothers need folks like me. Our city needs those like me.We are the Guardians. Not the Watchers, but those who defend. Not Warriors, but Healers.

Welcome to the new World. “I AM” is the most important statement one can make about their life. That’s the moment you “Become”.

And yes the World is my oyster and I will not vanish into the Mists.


  1. Hey, I need you too.
    Always appreciated your views.
    Thanks Youz.

    Comment by Editilla — November 17, 2009 @ 5:16 pm

  2. What a great attitude you have! This peace is well written.

    Comment by Stephen — November 27, 2009 @ 3:26 pm

  3. That’s right, you mentioned something about being on the spectrum once before.

    Both the above and the World AIDS Day piece are fully Wet Bank-worthy!

    P.S. This post originates from San Jose, CA, where I have been since September, thus explaining my long absence from the NOLA ‘sphere.

    Comment by KamaAina No Longer — December 7, 2009 @ 1:25 pm

  4. Wow! You ARE the next step in evolution. I think there should be a movie or documentary made about you. Seriously, it’s getting better but we need more movies about intersex people and the atrocities that continue to be waged against them. As for the Aspergers, yes, that too is defiantly where the human race is progressing. My whole family has traces here and there and that’s our take on it.
    Keep up the good work!

    Comment by Tania — January 9, 2010 @ 8:58 am

  5. Hi– I am the mom of a transgender child, m2f, 12 years old, here in New Orleans. I am scared when you say trans people live only to 30,though I can why that would be. Sadly… Best of luck to you, I am so glad you are here and writing and living and… HOLDING FORTH. Take care.:) A transgender woman told me, “It’s a blessing.” I hold on to that as I try to help my child grow up without destroying him/herself. Love,

    Comment by Ariel — January 11, 2010 @ 10:58 pm

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