Gentilly Girl

November 16, 2009

And I Am To Vanish Into the Mists?

Filed under: LGBT, New Orleans, Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 3:16 am

back in time there was a child, a freak of nature, though that child never knew the truth. A child who walked to school, studied hard and one that fulfilled the wishes of it’s parents; to be the best that you can be and never forget where you came from. The child who held their Mom as she died very early and a Dad that lost it because his world had ended. The child who became a “Mom”. A child who did everything to please…who had a goal in mind; “Evey chance for everyone”. The child thought, “I leave no one behind”.

That child wound up being the Class Valedictorian as it worked full-time to keep it’s world and the family safe, rated by the Military and many colleges as a prime choice- 200+ IQ and being part of the one hundreth of one percentile of the entire population. “There is nothing you can’t do.” they said. “The World is your oyster”. And that child turned down their Dad’s second mortgage to finance that child’s college fees because the child was worried about their siblings’ chances to be able to further themselves. That child did not want preferential treatment. The child knew what it was directed to do, what the Inner Voice called for.

That child went into Nuclear Engineering in the Navy, loving the calculations and the whole process, but after 9 years left for something different. The child decided to deal with people instead of equations, since people were what the child wanted to be involved with. It’s what the child needed in it’s soul. Connections with others was what that child craved, needed, and desired.

Yes, the child is me.

I’m an Intersexed woman with a healthy dose of Aspergers Syndrome to boot. And all I have ever wanted was to tend my own garden and see folks living happy lives. Sadly, that was never to be my fate. I have seen too much.I must speak from my heart and speak for those like me.
And I must live by the words of the Lady.

And no, She will not lend her mind to their crap; My belief and trust is in people. “Such a waste”, said my in-laws… “You could make so much money”. My answer was about how does money asauge the pain others are going through, the drive for true equality, the knowledge that you have a part in all of this?

My answer was that it didn’t.I don’t agree with the “$$$=Success” model. My sisters and brothers need folks like me. Our city needs those like me.We are the Guardians. Not the Watchers, but those who defend. Not Warriors, but Healers.

Welcome to the new World. “I AM” is the most important statement one can make about their life. That’s the moment you “Become”.

And yes the World is my oyster and I will not vanish into the Mists.

November 4, 2009

Remember “Maine”

Just fuck me now. Yesterday  the Christa-fux voted to dis-allow Same-Sex Marriage in Maine even though it was approved by the Courts, the Legislature and the Govenor. The recognition of equal rights for all Americans was negated by a bunch of cross-wearing fools that hate lives like the one Betts and I have together. Their “religion” tells them that people like us are evil and do not deserve the Rights of being a couple and living a life together. (Same shit went down in California last year with Prop. 8.)

They have decided that they can have Rights not available to other Americans that they deem unacceptable.  People like me and mine don’t count in America. We are to be discounted as Human Beings. This is wrong.

I’m not a slave to a “burning bush”. I do not believe in a book written by Mid-Easterners from as far back as 3,500 BCE.  I am a well-educated person living in the 21st Century. I’m a scientist, an engineer and a retail manager. I know how to live in the Reality that I’m presented with.

I’m a tax-paying citizen of this country and a Veteran. I don’t over-tax the Social network because I do things on my own. How fucking dare you cross-wearing mooks deny me MY RIGHTS just because you or your holy book don’t agree with my life. (I’m not the one birthing 12 kids when I can’t pay for them)

I gave almost ten years of my life to defend this country and Her ideals. I defended your right to live your life even when I disagreed with your choices. Never, NEVER, would it be in my soul to deny you your desires or beliefs.  “Different strokes for different folks”.  What makes you better than me? What about your life outweighs the life I live? Nothing that I can see.

My life with Betty is one where we work our tushes off to support community and other efforts. We are people that believe that unless you are a criminal, just live your life. Your lives are like ours; choices. How do we differ?

I have a solution to this entire problem- we get rid of all special benefits for married couples. We eliminate all benefits for kids. Hey, we are all just individuals and none of us should get more goodies than another. And let’s get rid of the tax exemption for religious companies?Let’s level the playing field.

Can you see an equitable Future that I see?

So you fucking Christa mooks, take your filthy hands off of our lives. Do not attack us for our ways and we don’t come after you for being Stone-Agers.  Let me and mine live our lives in peace.

Me and mine will eventually have full equality in this land… you may not like it, but FUCK YOU.  We are citizens of the United States.

January 13, 2009

And Now the Mooks Want Secrecy

Filed under: LGBT, Sex, Social Mores, Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 3:55 am

It’s no freakin’ news that I hate the Religeous Reich and their duped followers. Now they wish to shield those who donated monies to push Prop. 8 through in California a few months ago.

But they will want to see how much I donated in order to stop them.

“Our supporters should not be discriminated against for their beliefs, ” ” Sorry, but your kind attacks any person or group that aids our side”,

I’m an Intersexed woman. I have ovaries, a uterous, tiny Testes and a man-made penis… all done for the glory your God and your social systems’ Polar constructs.

You and your kind made my life a living Hell for almost forty years. Your kind refers to me as damaged , but it’s your surgeons that did the nasty on my body. I can’t feel that which most people feel all because you and your philosophy was going to “cure” me. It didn’t work assholes… I’m still here and I do know the truth about what you did to me and my sisters.

You fight against folks like me to have a loving relationship and the same perks you “married” assholes enjoy. You think you are sanctified and people like me are damned to Hell.

Sorry you worthless pieces of flesh. My Goddess has spoken and Betty’s Lord consecrated our union. No one can stand against the Word of the One.

In the fullness of Time I will see the destruction of your thought patterns and what you consider your “lives”. My wish is to be the one that pushes the button that removes you from what we others consider Life.

I desire revenge for what you and your filthy beliefs made of my life. My pain, nightmares, my inability to just be Human are not the causes of my revenge,  I wish to help those like me to come be able to have a full rich life. My wish is that I will be the last one so afflicted. That I may be the last of my tortured kind.

That’s the only price/ransom I desire.

I want to know who spends money to continue my Hell, and I want them to know of those who fight against their B/S.

I want the enemy to stand face-to-face with me, and then we will find out who is stronger,

Bring it on mooks. I am Hers, and there isn’t anything I can’t beat.

And I now go to Blessed sleep. May the New World never hurt another child like the old one did to me.

December 18, 2008

The T in LGBT That Will Not Remain Silent

Filed under: Campaign 2008, Inter/Trans-Sexed, LGBT, Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 7:59 pm

Yeppers, that would be moi.

There’s a current controversy about the minister that Obama has chosen fo his inaugaration as President.

I don’t give two shits about Warren filling this role- I just ignore Evangelicals since most of them are mooks. My heart automatically protects me.

Now, I want Barack Obama to utter the word “Transgendered”.

Is that too much to ask considering us Trans folk almost universally voted for the man?

September 24, 2008

Jefferson Parish Sure Knows How To Pick ‘Em

Whilst the U.S. “seems” to be rivited on this whole bullshit Socialism bailout for the investment bank industry, gnashing their teeth and wringing their hands (mainly the executives and politicians who created this mess) I’m burned out on doing research on the whys, wheres, whos and the final outcome of the rush to save the rich and greedy mooks out there in money land. I’m holding out for a few days to really get into it since I need to build up my source links for the post. (Yes, I’m very anal over the situation.)

So Gentle Readers, I’m going to go over an unbelievable outrage being “researched” right now in our beloved neighboring Parish, lovable, fun-loving, family-values oriented Jefferson Parish… Land of David Duke and his honorable supporters. I tried to write about this last night when the story broke, but my dictum of “Read, Vomit, Delete” kept getting in the way. This hits way too close to freakin’ home for me. Writing from a slow simmer sometimes works better than from a roiling boil.

Consider State Rep. John LaBruzzo, a fun-loving family-values sort who is so very concerned about the impact of the poor folks on State finances and he’s coming up with a solution- State sponsored sterilization. (I guess this might be considered better than “Are there no workhouses? Are there no debtor’s prisons?”) No, our whimsical LaBruzzo wants to “decrease the surplus poor population” with a $1,000 bribe to undergo losing one’s ability to have children.

Here is his rationale for this current attempt at Eugenics Jefferson Parish style-

“LaBruzzo said he worries that people receiving government aid such as food stamps and publicly subsidized housing are reproducing at a faster rate than more affluent, better-educated people who presumably pay more tax revenue to the government. He said he is gathering statistics now.”

Is this the 21st Century way of saying “We don’t want those kinds of folks around”?

On the other hand, he desires perks for the “right” kinds of people-

“It also could include tax incentives for college-educated, higher-income people to have more children, he said.”

Like this world needs more freakin’ Yuppies.

Here’s a little bit from the New Orleans City Business News-

LaBruzzo- “If both the welfare and Social Security system keep growing, one day we’re going to have a small minority of people working to fund and finance everybody else who isn’t working or producing,” LaBruzzo said. “Our kids, who will be working, will be the minority and any vote of theirs will be canceled out. If your livelihood is based on government handouts, why would you ever vote for somebody who is going to lower taxes? They never would. So once we reach that breaking point there’s no return.”

And from Shana Griffin, interim director of the New Orleans Women’s Health Clinic-

“If someone doesn’t have a car and needs to utilize city-assisted evacuation, that makes them a social burden? The fact that he feels so comfortable and entitled to make these statements is a reflection of our society, that we’re OK with the most vulnerable of our community being blamed for the social, economic and political crises that we’re experiencing,” Griffin said. “If we really want to improve the lives of people in our communities we would think about raising the minimum wage, holistic health care, improving labor laws, employment opportunities for all people and the educational system.

“Instead he wants to use a form of medical experimentation and forced sterilization on poor women of color, using their economic status as a way to make them more vulnerable to the offer.”

I also read an article last night where LaBruzzo is worried that because of differing birthrates between the Haves and the Have-Nots will alter voting patterns here in the Gret Stet. He was worried that his kind would lose elections. Sadly, any and all links to articles containing that admission are gone from the Web. I know I read that statement. Can we say “purge an unwanted statement”?

Rep. John LaBruzzo is a major fucking FUCKMOOK!

Now, why does this tale affect me much more than just the Racist aspect of the entire exercise? I AM a victim of Eugenics… the things medicine did to Intersexed people years ago in the name of Social stability and normalcy was horrible. We had to be corrected, and often said corrections render my tribe sterile. “Lord knows we don’t wany any of those teratologies (Medical= monsters) in our neighborhood. Think of the children!”. (Screw that shit.)

It has been found that my kind of body may very well have been fertile if the surgeons would have lopped the mis-formed Boy parts off and allowed me to be Female. Did the concept of Eugenics lead them to forever close the door to me reproducing? The answer is- wait for it… YES!

So though I’ve never been on Welfare or Food Stamps (outside of the Gustav food aid), and besides my utter outrage concerning LaBruzzo’s “thoughts” on Social Engineering, I have now developed a healthy hatred towards any one, any one, who voted for this prick or David Duke in the Past. You creatures are the ones that need to face extinction, not those who just live and let live.

May the Goddess have mercy on your wretched, twisted souls.. I can’t.

September 16, 2008

The Roll of the Dice

Filed under: LGBT, Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 1:16 pm

I, like so many of my Trans sisters and brothers, we are awaiting a decision on this case. Will Title 7 become our protection/liberataion? I hope so.

August 4, 2008

I’m in Fucking Pain…

Filed under: Inter/Trans-Sexed, Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 7:02 am

So some mother fucking cock decided to kill one of my little sisters after, days after, he realized who he was dealing with.

That’s a manly act, considering he had already had sex and did’nt realize who he was dealing with.  He had sex with the girl, came back two days later and then beat her to death with a fire extinguisher. Is it guilt or fucking stupidity?  (Ya’s don’t reach to the crotch and make your partner happy? ‘Tis a “manly” act… umph, umph, umph… I’m done.)  This prick is a pig, and he’s going to the pig pen and I pray that he enjoys his new life. (Okay bitch, here it comes!)

Angie is one of those who are one in one thousand births. It’s called endocrine disruption in utero. I am Intersexed… my kind, my kind is about one in every 2,500 births. She and I are as Nature made us. This isn’t a choice, it is a natural reality.  Neither one of us have/had a choice (unless it’s to deny self and live in pain), so we must be as we were created. To have a life is to accept the cards one is dealt.

From my point of view, one must grow where they are planted and live by that. In other words, we must be what we are. Many of our kind never make it past their 30th birthday, but those of us who accept and live with it have long and fruitful lives, unless that life is cut short by some heartless, clueless, bigoted fool or a blind society.

We are not a part of the polar society (if there really is one). We are part of the spectrum of Human kind. We are not yes or no, not plus or minus, not one or the other. We are just ourselves walking this green Earth, and we should not be demonized, marginalized or harmed for being what we are. We are sacred within the Lady’s eyes, and we should be respected as such. (walk a mile in my pumps Dearies) We are just like each and every one of you…  my hope is that you understand that.

No more Angies Darlin’s… no more. This is just one case out of hundreds.

There are Transvestites and others, but those of us who walk the talk and just live are real and whole. This is about our lives and realities. We harm no one and we wish to not be harmed as we do so. We are as Human as you… but we are a little different, and that ain’t bad. It’s about how Nature made us all, understand?

Please try to learn to understand who we are and what we are not, That’s all me and mine ask.

June 17, 2008

Why Are We Seen As Evil?

Filed under: LGBT, Trans-Feminist, Witch Stuff — Morwen Madrigal @ 1:31 pm

Today is the first day that same-sex couples are allowed to be married in California. And yes, the cross-wearing shits are freaking out.

The Constitutions of the Federal Government and the States do not not allow religious biases on Social issues. Our country exists under the rule of law and not some stupid book of Middle Eastern mythology shit. That is the promise to all citizens of our Country. Each and every one of us are to be respected under Law, and not be subjected to the “beliefs” of others.

I’m a veteran, and an Intersexed woman (mutilated by Christian fools), and I am a Lesbian… leave us alone and let us be with our partners. How the fuck does this harm you?

Does my life threaten you so much? Is your God powerless or impotent against me and mine? (That’s a yes to both questions)

Why is it that me and my baby share a bed and love each other and it’s wrong? My Goddess states that “All acts of love are Holy in mine eyes”. She is stronger than any god you can throw at me.

My “union” with Betty is Sacred. The Goddess and the Lord smile upon us. What we have is Sacred and loving. If any of you have a prob with that, fuck you.

Leave our tribes alone you fuckmooks.

June 9, 2008

Need Your Help- Part Three

Filed under: Inter/Trans-Sexed, LGBT, My Community, Trans-Feminist — Morwen Madrigal @ 3:07 pm

I started screaming about this a month ago-

If you are concerned about the direction the DSM V is moving in, please sign this petition if you haven’t already.

Thank ya’s kindly Darlin’s!

May 16, 2008

Same Genitals Marriage?

On Thursday morning the California State Supreme Court struck down current laws concerning same-sex marriage. Now the fuckmooks who are so very opposed to people not like them having equal rights are pledging to fight against the decisions of the Court. They desire a popular vote instead of the rule of law to determine who has what Rights. Fuck them…

Here is the ONLY proper definition of Individual Rights:

“Individual rights are not subject to a public vote; a majority has no right to vote away the rights of a minority; the political function of rights is precisely to protect minorities from oppression by majorities (and the smallest minority on earth is the individual).” Ayn Rand

Sounds strange for a Progressive Trans-Lesbian Feminist to quote Rand ‘eh? (She got some things right about Democracy) We all come into this incarnation as individuals. It is only later that many of us are assimulated into the Hive Mind of the Borg (and the Borg comes in many types of groupings). This basically amounts to the killing of our most precious gift in this life: our Being.

Don’t get me wrong, there are times when all of us must work with others for many of the needs of living and culture. As Spock puts it in Star Trek III, “Sometimes the needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few.”, but this does not mean ending the basic natures of the participants.

I’m a Gender-variant person, but that didn’t mean that Society couldn’t use my mind and abilities in working for the General Good. I’ve been an engineer, mechanic, teacher, cook and a decent person. I have sat with the dying in hospices and hospitals in order to salve their pains and fears. I have done what any upstanding member of a culture should do, but my right to my own Being is constantly under attack by the “Borg”. We are not beasts of burden or slaves to the prevailing societal mores. All of us have the right to be ourselves, just as Nature gave us, working together without having our lights being extinguished by bigotry and hypocrisy fueled by “mythologies” that cannot relate to Life in the 21st Century.

It doesn’t matter if one is Hetero or Homo or Trans… same goes for brown, black, white or purple folks. You can be short or tall, or have different eye colors… FUCK! this holds true even if one is a box turtle. All of us are who we are, and what we are not, and no power in the ‘Verse can take that away from even a single one of us. These are our birth-rights for being here at this point in time and space.

There is a meaning in each and everyone of our lives, whether it’s from God, the Goddess, the One or Nature. To DENY these things is tyranny and and a form of soul death. The “Borg” don’t really get this: they are destroying their own Souls by trying to recreate all folks into their “vision”. As always, we shall be judged by our works.

I’m going to close this out with a portion of the Wiccan Rede (my right-less partner and I have things to attend to for our lives):

“And do what you Will be the challenge, so be it Love that harms none.” Doreen Valiente

My name is Morwen, and I’m a Human Being. Are you?
“Greater than scene…is situation. Greater than situation is implication. Greater than all of these is a single, entire human being, who will never be confined in any frame” Eudora Welty

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